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[23 Nov 2005|12:15pm] |
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Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em!
Aaaaaah...I love that song. It speaks to me lol. Anyways...wow, I am actually updating my LJ. This is quite odd. I don't do any kind of online blog thing anymore except for Myspace. I was just bored so I felt like typing about what's been going down.
** Welll, as everyone knows me and Eric broke up almost 2 months ago. That was really rocky. Waaaay too much drama unfolded with that...a whole lot more than I ever thought. I trusted that boy, and I trusted him to not hurt me the way he did because I thought he actually cared about me. But I guess that goes to show that people change...or that sometimes they just aren't who you think they are. Ooh well. I got really pissed off at him because he lied to me about stupid things liiike not liking someone else and wanting to have a relationship after band ended aaaand being grounded on homecoming. Wellll that's all down the drain now. Whatever. Him and his new girlfriend can have a wonderful life together because I'm not talking to either of them. I will eventually (well...not her because I never liked her even before this whole situation hah) because it's gay to stay mad at people forever and I don't like holding grudges, but right now is not a good time. I don't need someone in my life who is gonna bring me down and that's EXACTLY what he was doing.
** Buuut now that I've taken care of that situation and said my peace aaaand disposed of some memories...things haven't been too shabby. I've made a ton of new friends this year and its awesome. I feel more outgoing also. I dunno...I just talk to more people now and I'm not as shy. Especially in my drama class..aaah! That class is soooo much fun! We're all like a biiiig family. I feel so loved when I'm in that class. Same with English. The back row crew rocks my socks! (Me, Erin, Ben and D Gonnnnn). And Liz is the greatest! We have tons of heartfelt talks lol. So yes, basically school is becoming a lot more bearable. This has nothing to do with school, buuut there's this boy and he's really cool =) I think I like him. Buuut I'm not sure. Hopefully I will find out soon and go from there.
** Cheerleading got better too. We didn't go to states, buuuut I don't really care because I had fun with my B-squad bitches!...and Becca haha. I've been going pretty psycho at football games. I just can't contain my hyperactiveness these days! All I wanna do at games is dance everywhere. Especially when the band plays Usher. Oooooh how I love football games...despite the bitter cold. We better go to states! That would be great. And it would postpone basketball season a little bit! I hate basketball season because of double headers...ew. And I can't dance around everywhere! Poo.
Wellll I guess that's it. It feels so weird typing in here! But ish cool. I think I'm going to see Rent today yayayayayayay. Well, that is if Becca calls me. But if she doesn't than I'll just call her. Ok, I'm done now.
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[28 Oct 2005|10:39pm] |
Why am I a jealous bitch? Why am I a jealous bitch? WHY AM I A JEALOUS BITCH? UGH.
Sooooo I've been talking crap about someone out of my own anger, frusturation, jealousy and assumptions. Up until this afternoon I felt like I was completely right about everything that I said and thought that I was doing the right thing by being such a mean person, but now I feel really bad because this person is so nice...they really are. They deserve the awesome thing that's happening to them right now because they've probably wanted for a really long time. She's gorgeous, sweet and probably really fun to talk to. What more could a guy want? I dunno exactly what's going on, but I know its something and I hope that it works out for the best and that she'll make him 15 million times happier than I ever did.
It's just so hard knowing that you've been replaced. The thought of him feeling the way he used to feel about me towards someone else puts this knot in my stomach and I get nausious (wow...I can't spell) and I almost puke. bjkladsfjkasfjklsdafjkldf...I thought I was over this and I told people that I was, but I'm not. I try so hard to fake it, but it hurts so bad. I can't take it anymore....especially when his mother acknowledges my existence more than he does. That just makes it all worse. I'm fucking done with this. I'm done with everything. I'm going to homecoming tomorrow and having a good time. From now on you're all going to see a new Lindsey. If I wanna get over this for real I've gotta be different.
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[07 Oct 2005|10:40pm] |
Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same
I've been thinkin' maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast and maybe
All my luck's washed down the drain
Yes...this is an update. lol. It's been over a month and A LOT and i mean A LOT has changed in my life. And its not good change, but whatever. I just have to deal and pray that it gets better. I know it has to eventually. Every single year this happens. I'm miserable in the beginning, but then things sloooowly start to get pretty good. I hope this is a repeat. And mostly of last year. If I had a rewind button I would seriously use it.
I miss Eric. I miss him so much. Everytime I'm talking to him I feel happy, but so empty at the same time because I can't hold him anymore. And then, when I'm not talking to him I'm wondering what's going to happen next and if he's thinking about me or how I feel. I still wanna be close with him, but right now I'm trying my hardest to give him his space, but it's really difficult to not pick up the phone just to have a conversation with him about...anything. I'm sure that soon enough things will become normal, and that what we talked about may have a chance to start happening but until then I'm just going to have to be strong and not let it show around him. As long as he's happy that's all that matters...because I'm pretty sure that eventually that will make me become happy again.
School is waaaaaaaay hard. Well, at least AP Bio is. I thought I was going to love that class because I always loved stuff that had to do with Biology, but it is so freakin difficult. I have either a C or a C+ in there...i'm not sure, but either way...i'm not used to getting that as a grade on interims or report cards. I know that since it's an AP class it actually counts as a B, but still it suucks. I'm pretty sure I have either an A or a B+ in APUSH so thats good, aand I'm HOPING that I have a B in AP English. I'm pretty sure I do, but sometimes I get not-so-good surprises. I have an A in all my other classes, except maybe math because I made a stupid mistake on this 3 question quiz which caused me to get a bad grade soo I may have dropped to a B+, but I've got time to bring it up before report cards. Blah, the gayness of junior year...especially the beginning of it.
So yeah, basically my life is in a slump right now. I can't wait until it starts climbing back up the hill of happiness again...but who knows when that will come.
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[01 Sep 2005|05:26pm] |
Temporary break from the hiatus to post zee schedule!
01 Creative Writing E154
02 20th Century History E128
03 AP VA & US History E136
04 Drama E147
05 AP Lang/Comp II E100
06 AP Bio F238
07 Func/Anl G F215
So far, I have creative writing with Jon, 20th Century with Heather and Gabby, APUSH with Kristina, Cassie and Heather, Drama with Harry, AP English with Heather and Kristina, ummm...AP Bio = no one yet :( and FAG with Kelly. I need to find more people!! Eric's mom told me that the lunches may have been switched around a little, but if English hasn't been switched then I have B lunch on both days. I know I definitely have lunch with Corinne, Becca, Samantha and Ashley on blue days, but I'm not sure about gold days. I think I may have it with Eric...if I looked at his schedule right, which I'm hoping because last year we had both lunches together and english so this is gonna be blah since I won't be seeing him as much and I'm gonna have to get used to it =/. Ooooh well.
So yep..let me know if you have anything with me!
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[24 Aug 2005|03:37pm] |
Wow...livejournal really isn't fun anymore...
I haven't changed my layout since American Idol was on...which was in like..March, and updating is just stupid aaaand no one comments anymore and when they do I always forget to comment back. Soooo you know what that means...
No more livejournal, for a very VERY long time. Xanga has stolen me away. Goooodbye.
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[21 Aug 2005|11:48pm] |
Sooo this week has definitely been not too shabby . The farthest I can remember back to is Wednesday...probably because thats when the cool stuff started sooo yah. Heeere it goes.
On Wednesday Eric came over at around 2 and we went on a walk up to McAuliffe and played on the playground and hung out in the big field and stuff and then we walked over to Hylton and rolled down that hill where the soccer fields are lmao. It was great fun man! lol. We hadn't taken a walk in awhile so it felt really nice. After the walk we went back to my house and watched Cheech and Chong lmao! That's some funny stuff right there lol.
On Thursday I went to the fair with my family and I brought along Eric and it was soooooo awesome! Me and Eric bought a whole entire pizza and sat on this bench (which we now claim as OUR bench) eating it and then burping haha. I swear..the best part of the night had nothing to do with the fair...it was just us sitting on the bench talking and being stupid..i love it <3. We did go on the big ferris wheel like...twice though, but the dude that was working it hit on me when Eric turned his back and it was scary lol. I was like aaaah, Eric, hold me! lol. That was a fantabulous night and so was the next one because I went to the fair again, but this time with Becca and Jessica! It was awesome...except at the end I got sick because we went on this one spinny ride and then another even spinnier ride right afterwards and I dunno..something just went wrong. It was weird because a ride has never made me get all dizzy and feel like blah, buuut it got better once I got home. I was just happy for us three to do something together since we hadn't in a reeeeally long time.
Yesterday was truly one of the most awesomely funny days of the summer...it was greatness. I went over to Lane's house to spend the night along with Corinne and Grace and I had the best time...I am so glad they're my friends. We always laugh so much when we're together. But anyways..we got there and ate some pizza and then we went to the mall and did some shopping and tried homecoming dresses, and then we saw Red Eye which was really good, but extremely funny because Grace screamed at this one part and started flailing (sp?) her arms and legs everywhere and she spilled popcorn..oooh man, it was hilarious lol. After that we went back to Lane's house and just like...sat around and stuff and watched this one movie that her dad picked up at the video store, but he didn't know what it was and we thought it was gonna be some scary movie, but it was like..this cheaply made porn and it was nasty!! haha. It wasn't really porn though...we just thought it was because the beginning was really...wow, and just the way it was made and stuff but only the beginning had people..doing each other lol. The rest was just retarded and pretty boring. There was also some late night kitchen laughter, and yeah...it was just an awesome night. I missed them all soooooo much!
Today I had to go to my grandma's house and then I came home and got ready and went to the movies with Eric. We saw Steeeealth. It was...I don't really know because I got confused because I kept on dozing off haha. It was because I stayed up so frickin late last night, but yeah. Eric didn't mind. He's the best pillow every lol. He was being really sweet...it almost made me cry from just how awesome he is. This is like the definition of absolute happiness right here. I never want this feeling to end.
I have 2 very awesome things to look forward to this weekend. 1) 311 AND PAPA ROACH WITH SAMANTHA ON FRIDAY!!!!!! omg...I am sooo totally excited. You have noooo idea. I haven't been to a concert since the beginning of 9th grade. It'll be even better since I'm going with my homo and we both are like...scars obsessed lol. and the 2nd thing is...PARTAY ON SATURDAY! woop woop. It's gonna be a hot weekend...definitely an awesome way to start ending out the summer.
Ok, well this has been extremely long sooo i'm gonna be done now...gooooood bye!
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[14 Aug 2005|10:03pm] |
4 month anniversary today!
I love him so much. <333
We saw The Island. It was good except it seemed like the ending kinda dragged on longer than it needed to. We both agreed that it should have ended like...half an hour earlier. Otherwise, coolness! Before we went to the movies he came over and we watched part of Bring It On because it was on USA like...alll day long. That one was pretty much my decision lol. I'm a cheerleader, I can't help loving that movie!! haha. "These are not spirit fingers...THESE ARE SPIRIT FINGERS! and these...are GOLD!" lol..i know like every line.
Yesterday I watched Hitch. I liked it a lot. It was really funny and really sweet. "Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breathe away" "Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away." aaaah...greatness! Those are some great memorable lines right theeeeeeere.
I'm really tired soooo i'm out.
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[12 Aug 2005|07:11pm] |
I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack! Woop woop!
Ooh man, I'm so frickin happy...you have no idea. Spending basically 24/7 with 28 other girls for 4 days can get REALLY annoying REALLY fast, but...I still had fun for the most part!
It was really hot outside, and I got really sweaty and icky...and any time to sit down was savored...even if in wet grass or uncomfortable hard surfaces. Breakfast, lunch and dinner were crucial lol. So was shower time! Aaaah, the best time of the day haha. We did really awesome at all of our evaluations. It was a huuuuuuuge improvement from last year where we had to practice for like an hour afterwards in the dark because we dropped stunts in our extreme routine eval and only got a red ribbon (blue ribbons are the best). This year we got aaaaall blue ribbons...and some gold too! Which is really really good. For the camp champs competition we got 2nd out of 10 teams in both the cheer and extreme routine categories (being beaten out by Garfield..grrrrrrr) Ooh well..they did reeeally awesome, and I give them credit for being so good. There's no use in bashing them. But we did GREAT! I could tell that Mac, Mike and Lo were really proud of us for once. We seriously busted our butts this year. I didn't really get to do as much stunt wise as I wanted to though...which made me upset because I feel like I'm turning into the reject again for the second year in a row. At practice on Monday I'm gonna talk to Coach Mike about how I feel and see if there's any way that I can go in with other stunt groups to try harder things to get more experience to give me at least a little bit of a better chance of being on competition squad. I want it soooo much this year, you have noooo idea. Like, I know that there's a lot of talent this year so if I'm not on it then I'm not going to feel all that bad because there will be 8 or 9 more people in the same boat as me..its just that I really wanna prove myself this year because I know that no one notices me or thinks that I'm of any use at all so yeah...whaaaatever. I'm just gonna try and change things.
But on a good note...there were lots of funny moments, like when me, Becca and Alison locked ourselves into my room so no one would come and eat our pizza because they all took Becca's radio without asking and because we wanted to see if they would notice that we weren't around...like THAT happened haha. Aaaand me and Alison were a bit sneaky and thats all I'm gonna saaay lol. Also on the way there we passed some resturant that was called Bodo's Bagels or something like that and I thought it said Boob's Bagels and I was like "Come to Boob's Bagels...you show us your boobs we'll give you bagels!" bahaha..it was really funny at the moment. I also attempted to learn some booty dancing...didn't work out too well. "I can't move my butt in those ways!" haha Lacey inside joke! "I LOVE your outfit" "...FREAK!" "Do you love it?" "LOVES IT!" haha..ok, i'm done now.
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[08 Aug 2005|04:34pm] |
Updatingness before I leave for camp tomorrow morning at 6:30 in the morning! aaaahhh! Exciting...yet not at the same time. Cheer camp was a lot of fun last year soo hopefully it will be the same, but I hope it goes by fast...since I have good things to come back to that I will miss very very much.
Saturday was like..the best day everrrrrr! Except for one incident that happened, but we aren't gonna get into that, but anways...Eric and his parents picked me up at around 1 and they dropped us off at the mall and we saw Fantastic Four and sat in the Lovesac...the usual thing. But we hadn't really been there in awhile so it was cool and felt good to sit in those uber comfy beanbags. Oh, and Eric gave me my present! It's these really cool rings that change colors in the sun! He knows me all too well because the reason he got them for me was because he knew I would be easily amused with them...and boy was he right lol. After that Eric's mom picked us up and we went back to his house and chilled in his room until dinner was ready...hamburgers and hotdogs mmmmm. Oh..I have a new favorite song! It's called Octavarium by Dream Theater...its on their newest CD. It's 24 frickin minutes long! But the way it starts out...omg. It is soooo serene and awesome and...kinda has this romantic mood and tone to it. So yes...all thanks to Eric for getting me into that band. But anyways, after dinner we chilled in the basement and watched Dogma and Eric's dad made us yummy ice cream with a warm brownie on the bottom. =) Eric's parents make good food lol. After the movie was over at 9 I had to go home. *sadness* I had so much fun that day, I didn't want it to end. Spending the whole day with Eric is like spending a day with...I dunno, something really good haha. As you can see I'm not very good with words lol.
Yesterday I went to the Rec Center for open gym with Fatima to work on my tumbling one last time before camp....I did my round-off backhandspring by myself once! But I kinda landed on my knees lol. Ooh well...its almost there. I will most definitely have it by football season...or at least sometime in September.
Today I've just been packing for camp. We're having 80s spirit day on Thursday so my mom gave me some of her old leg warmers and I decorated them with star stickers and sequins lol. I also made a little doorknob hanger for me and Alison's dorm that we'll be staying in. It's gonna be soooo much fun I can just feel it! It's gonna be a lot of work and really really hot at times, but I know that it'll be great...and when I get back, I will most definitely appreciate home and my bed more lol. I'll miss everyone while I'm gone! Especially my Eric ♥
Alright well, I'll be back Friday evening sometime...I hope you all have a fun week! Leave me comments <3 Byeeee.
( oooh yeah...a survey thing..it interested me lol )
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[04 Aug 2005|07:13pm] |
Uhhh...update time? Yes.
I've had tons of fun the last couple of days sooo that's happy news right there! But yeah..anyways, on Tuesday I went to the Kings Dominion with Jessica and her family. It was cooolness because I mean..DUH..ITS KINGS DOMINION! lol. I rode that new Tomb Raider ride. It's scarier watching than riding..but it was alright. I was mad though because a whole bunch of rides kept on breaking down so the only 2 rollercoasters I got to ride were the Outer Limits and the Grizzly, but I rode other things like White Water Canyon and Drop Zone and stuff. But on White Water Canyon...I barely got wet! It was sooo upsetting! Everyone got soaked except for me! Uggggh..ooh well. We went to the water park and that was awesome...i love water slides and lazy rivers mhmmmm. I was dead tired when I got home though buuut it was cool.
Yesterday I had to go get my physical for camp and then I had a cheer meeting and practice afterwards. I had fun at practice for once. I was with Laura, Vivian and Amy and we were doing all these more advanced stunts that I had never based before and it was awesome. I felt that I did pretty good for my first time doing all that stuff. Before I had just done the basics soo yeah...I was haaappy! We also found out that we're hosting All County and Districts!! That means that all of you better come and watch and support us because we're gonna be great this year! Yuuup yup. So yeah..I got my uniform for camp and went home and Eric called and we talked til midnight aaand then I went to bed, aaand that was my Wednesday!
Today was gooooood. We picked up Eric at 12 and went to Taco Bell and got lunch and came back to my house. Those stupid Taco Bell workers forgot my mexican pizza! urrrrgh. So I only had tacos to eat, but I didn't mind because I ended up getting full after eating 2 tacos. But yeeah, anyways...we just watched TV and stuff like we usually do when he comes over. But it was great because I hadn't seen him in 2 weeks cause of his cruise and whatnot sooo I was tremendously happy to spend time with him. He got me a present from the Cayman Islands! BUT...he forgot it haha. Our 4 month is coming up soon and so is his birthday!! I think I have some idea as to what I'm getting him, but I'm still not totally sure because I want it to be special and have thought put into it because I care about him and I don't wanna just give some crap thing. I know that he would be happy with anything and he told me that he didn't want anything, but psssshh...he knows i'm not gonna do that! lol. I mean, when it was my birthday I told him not to get anything, but he did anyways...thats just always the way it goes.
Jessica and her mom just came over a little while ago and talked about going to New York with them for Jessica's birthday at the end of September..I am sooo excited! We're gonna see a show and stay in a nice hotel and go to Central Park and walk in the fancy stores..but not buy anything because I'm not rich lol and yeah...its gonna be great! I get to go to New York twice...for this and for creative writing =)
Ok, well I've rambled on enough..I'm just happy so it makes me say more lol. Goood bye.
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[01 Aug 2005|07:22pm] |
Blaaah...so bored...and sad =( But anyways...
Yesterday and the day before was Elleka's partay! It was sooooo fun, just as I thought it would be. It was hawaiian themed and her deck was decorated like..uber cool. I had like...2 or 3 virgin dacquiries..mmmmmm. Yummyness! But yeah...we all slept over (minus Tangi of course) and stayed up aaaall night talking about dreams and ghosts and other weird things and were retards liiiiike usual. I was dead the next day though haha. But ooooh man! I want this one movie and this one video game reeeeeally bad now! The movie is called Legend and its a really old Tom Cruise movie where he has to save these unicorns from these demons that are trying to take all the light away. We didn't get to actually WATCH the movie because it was Lynne's tape and the VCR wouldn't work, but I remember seeing it as a kid. I had been wondering what the movie had been called for YEARS! When Lynne showed me the movie I was like OMG OMG OMG...THIS IS THE MOVIE I'VE BEEN WONDERING ABOUT SINCE I WAS LIKE 4 YEARS OLD OMG WE HAVE TO WATCH THIS!!!! I started like..spazzing out haha. The video game that I want is Space Channel 5. It reminds me of Austin Powers lol. Its like..dancing battles with robots lol.
Elleka's drunk neighbor came over to hang out with her parents and it was hilarious. There's one of those baby gates in front of Elleka's TV and Elleka's stepdad was taking the drunk neighbor home and they came into the living room and he was like "Sam...why is there a picket fence in front of your TV?" muahaha...i dubbed it the signature drunk phrase lol.
All though that was all awesome and great and fun and made me happy at the time...now..I'm not all all whatsoever. I have not talked to or seen my boyfriend in more than a week, and I want him to come home because I miss him like crazy =*( I thought that he was supposed to be back by now because he left on Sunday and I wasn't expecting him to be gone for more than a week, but he still hasn't called me, and it makes me reeally really sad! He must be on one long cruise or something. I might call him tonight just to see, but I would hate to call and him just have gotten home and he was really tired or something. I always feel like a bother when I do that, but if he doesn't call me by tomorrow then I am DEFINITELYM calling to see if something's wrong. Ok, i'm rambling now and no one CARES but I just had to get it out because it was bothering me.
On a good note...I'm going to KD tomorrow with Jessica! I've been waiting for this all summer. I love Kings Dominion with a passion. I am a rollercoaster FREAK! Hopefully that will keep things off of my mind.
Byeeee bye.
Ediiit: Hah, I knew this would happen because of the irony that fills my life, but a few hours after making the entry Eric called me! He's back! <333333 *uber happiness*
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[27 Jul 2005|08:13pm] |
( i stole this from corinne )
I am in need of an update....at least I think so..
WELL...this week hasn't been all that exciting. Eric left for his cruise on Sunday and we couldn't hang out on Friday or Saturday so Thursday was the last time I saw him and blaaaaaaah, it SUCKS! It wouldn't be so bad if I had interesting things to occupy my time, but I really don't. So yeah, I miss him lots and I can't wait until he gets back.
On Sunday, I went to my grandma's house and for once...I was not bored one little bit. My grandma had the ancient Nintendo hooked up and I was playing Mario and Duck Hunt. I am so beast at Duck Hunt haha. And yeah...I was in a conversation mood so I talked to everyone instead of sitting in my spot on the couch in the living room blasting music on my headphones...partly because the batteries were dead though haha, but still. It was cool.
Monday, Tuesday and today all I've really done is do my AP summer assignments...uugh! It's really gay, but I'm glad that I'm actually taking the time to do it and to actually try and not BS everything at the last minute. I feel...accomplished lol. But anyways...the only time I went out was on Monday because I had practice which was HORRIBLE because we had to practice outside...omg, I thought I was going to die. I don't know what human in their right minds would have made us practice and condition in that heat. When I got home I felt like jello and I was dizzy and could barely move around. My mom and dad got really mad because they knew that it was bad air quality outside and we shouldn't have been doing so much stuff. I think they were right. And to make matters worse I got stung by a bee in my finger and that hurt the whole entire night..arrrgh. Ooh well, no use in complaining because its all done and over with...and no more cheer until camp! I'm excited about camp though...its gonna be tons of fun, and Alison is gonna be rooming with me!
I'm excited for tomorrow because Corinne and Tangi are coming overrrr! I haven't seen either of them all summer and its gonna be great and just totally make this bummer of a week a whoooole lot better. I also have Elleka's b-day party to look forward to on Saturday...I seriously can NOT wait. It's gonna be great! I haven't seen her all summer either and it will be awesome to hang out with her. I have to start getting my outfit together though because its a hawaiian party! I love dressing up so in that kinda stuff. I also have Eric's return to look forward too hopefully at the end of this week and the next time I see him I shall glomp him like no other haha. That sounded very wrong...lol.
Alright..so long, fair well!
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[21 Jul 2005|07:50pm] |
Samantha told me I should update so here I am!
Lets seee, lets see..what happened this week...Ummm...why can't I rememberrrrrrrrrrrr?! Ooh well. Buuuut I do remember that on Sunday I went and saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Jessica! It was awwwweeesome. I know some people said they thought it was stupid, BUT I think they're wrong! I thought it was really funny...those oompa loompas cracked me up man lol. I don't think I did anything on Monday except go to cheer practice. It was weird because my coach was like "alright, tonight i'm choosing the stunt groups" and he told me to go and FLY over in this one group..and i'm like abuuuh? But, of course I did it because i'm not one for arguing and it felt kind of...refreshing haha. I hadn't flown in at least a month and like...I wasn't doing great, but I wasn't doing completely horrible either so that was surprising. I still got my heelstretch!
Ok, enough about cheerleading...on Tuesday, I saw War of the Worlds with my family. I thought it was really good, and very weird. I think the aliens faces looked like lemurs, buuut thats just me lol. After that we went to the food court and I gots me some Taco Bell mmmm, and then my mom took me to PacSun and Hollister and I got 2 pairs of Bermuda shorts, regular jean shorts, 3 pairs of pants ($6.90 each at Hollister!! it was awesome), aaand a polo shirt. That made me a happy camper lol.
Yesterday the whooooole entire day I did stupid AP work. It was soo gay, but I got half of the APUSH packet done, and I'm hoping I will get a lot more done by next week. I only have like..50 pages left in Huck Finn and next I am going to tackle The Eloquent Essay...this shall be very...NOT interesting. But anyways, the only good part about that day was I got a call from Eric aaaand he was back from lacrosse camp! I misseded him. But, I got to see him today and it aaaall made up for it..minus when my brother came inside because he purposefully comes into the kitchen and takes 45 minutes to eat some bread and drink kool-aid JUST because he enjoys annoying me and not letting us have any alone time because he KNOWS that I hate when he does that. Buuut I did a little threatening and got him away for the last 25 minutes Eric was at my house. I think my mother should send my brother to a crazy house until the end of the summer buuuut I know she won't go for that idea.
Gooodbye.
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[14 Jul 2005|05:24pm] |
3 months 3 months...yaaaaaaaaay!
So this is officially my longest REAL relationship...where I've actually seen the guy on a regular basis lol.
Sooo Eric came over aaaaand we did cool, fun Lindsey and Eric things because we're weirdos, buuuuut I gotta admit...I LOVE IT! I'm not gonna be able to see him for a week though cause he's leaving for lacrosse camp on Saturday =( Buuuut I know he'll have fun there and while he is gone I will have fun shopping because my mom said she's gonna take me sometime next week! Yesterday we went to the mall I browsed at the stores to get ideas for what I want and I definitely found some stuff. I did get one thing I wanted though. It was this cool jacket thing at Abercrombie. It's niiiice and comfy.
But anyways, I really need to hang out with some people...I get to see Eric at least 2 or 3 times a week and that makes me the happiest girl in the world, but I've only seen Samantha twice, Becca once and Jessica...not at all! I have not seen my best friend since the last day of school and that is preeetty pathetic. I haven't seen Corinne at all either and I want to reeeeally bad *sadness* I need to get on the ball and start making some plans.
And speaking of that...I need to get on the ball with my AP work! That stuff just scares me...I don't even wanna look at it. It's like a big ugly monster filled with books and weird patriotic songs thats gonna gobble me up for breakfast, lunch AND dinner...and also a little dessert too.
Ok, well I'm gonna go now..hunger calls. And so does daydreaming on my bed about the most wonderful...2 hours everrrrrrrrrrr <33
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Sooo...HAPPY BELATED 4TH OF JULY PEOPLES!!
Yah, I think that this was my best 4th of July everrr. It was really fun. My family does the same thing every year so that of course gets kinda boring, but I got to bring along Eric sooo that made it like 192831382 times better.
We went to my grandma's house and ate food..lots and lots of food. Eric liked that. lol. Ummm, we walked down to 7-Eleven and got a Slurpee and gum, that I ended up giving to my brother becaaause I didn't really like it all that much. We also walked down to this park that's like..right down the street from my grandma's house and they always have like..stuff going on the 4th of July and we got ice cream and sat down in the least crowded field we could find lol. After that we went back to my grandma's house and sat on this swing she has on her back porch and just talked and it was really nice because there were fireflies all around the backyard and stuff. Aaand we watched the fireworks that they put off at the park and that was great. I dunno, I just can't really describe things when I'm with him...all I can say is that it just always feels right and it's the greatest feeling ever. But yeah, the only downside to the whole night was my 6 year old cousin who developed a crush on Eric lmao. She would just not leave us alone during some points of the day. She kept on coming and sitting on Eric's lap and calling him "cutie Eric" hahahahah..omg, I laughed so hard. It was pretty funny though, and she didn't do it to the extent of where I wanted to throw something at her or lock her in a dark closet sooo that's a plus lol.
Buuuut right now, I'm totally bummed because my parents got the cell phone bill...and it's not pretty and basically I'm in trouble. From now on I have to keep my phone turned off during weekdays until 8:00 at night, and I can have it on all day during weekends. So yep, now I gotta start using the home phone which suuucks because of stupid call waiting. And it's really gay because the only person I talk to on the phone is Eric because he doesn't have AIM so that's like our way of communication and the cell phone was just easier because I wouldn't have to worry about my parents using it...stupid money. Ooh well. I gotta call him later to tell him to not call me on that anymore unless it's during the free times.
I'm also bummed because I have to go to stupid Charlottesville for 2 or 3 days and it is sooo completely boring up there. We have this house up there but it's in the boonies and we only go up there occasionally soo we don't have cable or satellite and the house is really old. My parents say it's to get away and for "relaxation." Psssssh, I relax everyday. That's what a bed is for!Sheesh. Ooh well, whatever. I'll be back no later than Friday.
And to make myself not be so bummed and unhappy here's the one and only picture I took on my wonderful 4th of July because I completely forgot that I brought my camera until later.
Hurray!
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Alright..the hiatus is gonna start tomorrow...Becaaause..something exciting happened today!
Right when I woke up I got online and Daniel was on and he's staying at one of his friend's houses now to visit here and stuff and he was like..i'm gonna jog over to Samantha's you should come over and I'm like of course! So yeah, I went over there and got to see him for the first time in a year! It was great, I really missed him. It was just so weird though since you know, we went out up until the point he moved away. I mean..the feelings haven't returned or anything because I have Eric and I love Eric, but it just reminded of why I liked him so much in 9th grade. But yeah..it was really fun. We just chilled on Samantha's front porch for like 2 hours. We fought over empty gatorade bottles and talked about the good ol' times back in freshmen year..like lunch "You know what that REALLY is?" and history and english class. He's definitely still quite the same, random and weird...just taller lol. Here are some pictuuures!
( woop woop! )
Yup yup, fun times!
After that I went home and called Eric and he came over and we watched Robin Hood: Men in Tights! I love that movie..it's so funny. We also watched Boy Meets World. It was the episode where Corey's brother in real life was on the show and played the teacher that hit on Topanga. Mhmmm, I love that show lol. And it's even better with a side of Eric! yup yup. Goood times.
Welp...goodbye!
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Mmmm..nothing really exciting to update with, just a couple of random things...
I watched the Andy Milonakis show just now because I missed the premiere last Sunday and I wanted to see what it was about it and man oh man..so retarded, so random...so my kind of show!! haha, I laughed so much. Especially in the beginning when he got a package of a chicken nugget pez-like dispenser, and when Lil Jon came out of his TV...and when the Rap Fairy came lol. Ooooh, I have no life but MTV shows these days. For the first time in my life I've become addicted to The Real World. And I said it would never happen *tisk tisk*. The new episode of Made yesterday made me laugh particularily more than others. Because I mean come on..skinny white dude wants to be a rapper! THE BLIZZARD IS COMIN! Sometimes..they call me Dr. Dreidel. aaaah, funnay. Wow..this is pathetic.
After taking a trip to the mall on Tuesday with Eric I have discovered that Lovesacs are the greatest things to come into existence. Sooooooo comfy! Ooooh, I want one so bad. And one of their cool shirts that say "Lovesac" on them. "Why granny, what a big sac you have!" aaaaaah...classic.
I can't wait until 4th of July. I get to spend the whooooole day with Eric. I'm hoping it will go well and be fun since we're gonna be at my grandma's house and all, but I'm sure it will. If my parents don't let us walk down to the park I will be sad. I wish they would let us go to the park and watch them, but I know they wouldn't let us do that sooo we're just gonna have to watch them from the sidewalk like we do every year. Ooh well...it'll be a million times better watching them with Eric.
I might go on a little hiatus for a little while. I dunno, writing my life down in these online journals has just started getting old. I will most definitely update every once in awhile though, but only when important things happen or when I feel like it so don't delete me! I'll comment on other people's posts and stuff!
Alright, well. That's enough. Goodbye.
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I almost forgot...I never posted end of the year pictures!
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So far my summer has been going pretty good I suppose. It kinda feels like we've been out of school longer than 5 days, but maybe that's just me? I dunno. Buuut it doesn't matter.
Sooo on Saturday I was supposed to go to the movies but I couldn't so me and Eric beat our record and talked on the phone for 7 hours. Yes, I am aware that I have no life, but it was a lot better than sitting around all day talking to no one and talking to Eric always makes my day so ya know...I had fun! lol. On Sunday I had to go to my grandparent's house because of Father's Day. It was alright. I got good food lol. On Monday I went to the mall/movies with Eric and we saw The Longest Yard. It was funnnay shtuff. He also bought me some Taco Bell and I got Haagen Daaz and that was definitely awesome. Yesterday Eric had some miniband camp thing at Hylton soo he walked over to my house afterwards and we hung out at McAuliffe and then came back to my house and chilled for a few hours. It was the shizzy nizzy :)
So far, today is boring, boring and even more boring. It had the potential to be fun again because Eric had another day of mini band camp and could have come over again, buuut my parents are not home and won't be home for a lot of the day. But it's cool because they're getting our brand new silver Hyundai Elantra with a black stripe equipped with sun roof and awesome stereo system that I get to drive! yaaay! I'm so excited. I'm gonna be jammin' once I get my license.
Alright, I'm done now...byeeee bye.
( survey I got from Becca )
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Wellll here it goes...The end of the year dedication entry!
This year...was completely AWESOME. It totally rocked. Well, most of it at least. In the beginning of the year I was kinda going through a "I feel so bad for myself" stage because I having tough times in cheerleading and I was all boo hoo, I want a loving boyfriend, buuut I got that problem solved!
So I guess I'll go class by class...
PE/Health: Omg, me and Jessica had some grrreat times in there. We were Mr. Thornton's favorites! Like seriously...we could do pretty much whatever we wanted lol. I remember one day we walked around talking like nerds.."WHERE'S MY GLASSES?! *snort*" haha...I love her. I also had that class with Corinne, Lane, Alison, Chelsey and Becca and they are too awesome. I also met a new friend and her name is Ashley! =) She rocks hardcore and is the best looser I know!
English: Hmmm...mixed feelings on that class. Mr. Hulburt was a fag at times and made me feel stupid a lot, but I absolutely LOVED the people in that class. Eric, Jessica, Corinne, Elleka, Ashley, Grace, Cale, Chelsey, Nichelle, Terrell, Jennifer, Stephanie and Sheryl. My favorite part of the year was the days where Jessica sat next to me and Eric sat by me. Me and Eric talked the whoooole time and passed notes..basically made Hulburt mad, but ooh well..it was worth it.
Spanish: Ooooh spanish...SPANISH COMPLETELY RUUUULED! That was definitely my favorite class of all. Mr. Larry Williams is the funniest guy everrrr. Him and his evil laugh and his chair molesting him..PULOVIO! lmao. I always had laugh attacks in that class...along with Samantha, Alison, Heather, Cassie, Carrie and Veronica. That's what got us our infamous name...THE GIGGLE SECTION! It will never die. Jeopardy was the greatest thing. I knew the Moby Dick question! That's definitely gonna be the class I miss the most.
Math: Hah..math. Kinda boring, buuut with Samantha and Katy aka Caddie entertaining me with their weirdness it could be pretty good at times. I remember one time..the overhead blew up one time and Terrell said something really funny about not shooting at the black man or something lol. A lot of people didn't like Ms. Brundage, but I thought she was really nice. She was nice to me at least lol.
Geography: My other favorite class! Teehee. Our class was crazy. I mean...a classroom with me, Tangi, Cassie, Ayushi, Steven M, Steven K, Ryan, Eugene, Emily, Diana, Becky, Jessica S and sometimes Eric W is gonna be pretty awwwesome and chaotic lol. We all just talked the whole entire time and Ms. Schofield was the coooolest! I'm gonna miss her like crazy. She let us take out our cell phones and CD players and Ipods and whatnot. Me and Tangi had a good time being retarded and yelling at each other and poking each other. Haha man...me and him had some INTERESTING conversations lol. haha..omg lmao..I just remembered the April's Fool prank we all played on Ms. Schofield. Jessica took Ms. Schofield outside and told her her parents got in an accident and me and Ayushi went in the front of the room and started fighting and she sooooo totally bought it. Oooooh man...great times great times.
Chorus: Meh...it was alright this year. Most times I never really looked forward to going. Sapphire definitely wasn't all that great. It got better towards the end of the year though because me, Corinne, Lane, Grace and Mallory got really close. I'm gonna miss not having them in the same class sooooo much! When we get together we just laugh uncontrollably and act all retarded and whatnot. It rocked.
Chemistry: Omg...this class SUCKED. The people were cool, but Chem is sooo stupid. I got fun though at the end of the year when she let us sit wherever we wanted and me and Katelyn took the back corner and just like...talked and laughed a lot. THE BUCKEYBALL! and that weird german dude in that movie, garsh..I can't even remember all our inside jokes. It was too funny sometimes. Michael Sloan and Melvin and Sequib also rocked hardcore. "Have a fun summer filled with chemistry" "You masterbate to pictures of livestock!...and poultry too!" Lmao...good shtuff. Also had some fun times with my awesome lab partner Deniiiise. Lighting things on fire and whatnot. Hah..Steven and his fish lol.
Ah yes...I feel like I'm forgetting so much and I probably am because there was soooo many inside jokes this year..I just couldn't possibly remember them all.
I think I did a lot of growing this year. I think I've finally found myself and the kind of person that I want to be. I'm still pretty immature about a lot of things, but in some aspects I have matured. I also found something which I didn't think I could ever possibly find. I thought it was impossible for me to ever feel that one feeling that everyone wants to feel, but I believe that I have. I found love. My first love everrrr. And its the greatest thing ever. I've had boyfriends before but they never meant this much to me. Eric Meyer is just greatest boy ever <3333.
This year was the coolest thing yet and I just wanna thank EVERYONE for making it that way. Cheerleading even turned out to be not so bad because Becca and Stephanie rock and I even dabbled in a bit drama. Ooooh how I love my one-act people. I can't wait for next year. We're definitely going to states for cheer and the one-act will be even better! And hopefully I'll be able to do the spring play.
Junior year...HERE I COME!
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